We're Expecting....

After having to say goodbye and many months of tears and confusion. I am happy to say I am pregnant again. The first few weeks were agonizing, just waiting for something bad to happen, which thank goodness nothing did and I am now 12 weeks pregnant with what I hope is a perfect little baby. I started feeling the first flutters of movement last week and now I notice them more and more. We went to the Dr. at 8 weeks and got to see our little peanut with a nice strong heartbeat. I just sat there and bawled, I don't think I have ever been so happy before. We went back to the Dr. this last week and it happened to be at the same point we found out we lost our angel last time. I was on pins and needles watching the Dr. look for our baby's heartbeat, and then there it was. For anyone who has never heard a baby's heartbeat it sounds like a train. That was the sweetest sound we had ever heard. At 170 BPM, the baby had a perfect little heartbeat. I decided to do the NT scan, (that is to check for abnormalities in the fetus) So I got to see my baby again and there it was only four weeks later from the first ultrasound and it had gone from a blob to an actual little person. It had hands and feet, and eyes and a nose and a little mouth and was absolutely perfect. I am going into my second trimester next week and I am so excited. I didn't ever think that I would ever get this far ever again; I was beginning to think that there must be something wrong with me. The actual thought that I am going to carry this child to full term and bring home this little one are actually a dream that is coming true. I feel so blessed that I am able to carry this little miracle and Caleb will finally no longer be an only child. I am due March 16, 2010.